February 2012
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Anonymous asked: Hang in there try 2 take the energy u spend berating yourself and turn it into positive feelings that'll help u b more who u want 2 be rather than who u convinced yourself u r. U can do it
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I've been feeling like shit
I was out of town. I was partying, but still I couldn’t stop thinking about how fat I was. And I drank to forget about it, but those thoughts kept haunting me. And I wanted to cut everyday when I was gone. I even took my blade with me, but I didn’t do anything. I just felt like shit. I felt like a fat piece of useless trash. And I keep on feeling like that. It seems like I’m...
my mind: you're so fucking fat fat fat fat fuck you shouldn't be eating calories this calories that you need to exercise omg purge you fat piece of shit why did you eat that? look at your stomach it's so fucking fat all of you is fat you're so ugly
other people's minds: hey the weather is nice today. i wonder who in this class is a virgin? damn that new kid is hot. i want nutella for lunch. i think i should get my hair cut this weekend
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I did it again
I worked out today, I did a lot of great stuff that would have made myself happy, but I wasn’t happy. So I cut. Again. I was clean for 4 days and now I’m back on zero.
I got a little dizzy at first, but didn’t stop doing it. But, still, I’m doing just little cuts. Today I cut again in the same place I did before, in one of my legs. So I guess people won’t see if I...
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I've got some bad news
Remember that I said I was going to hang out with some friends last night? Well, I did. It was a party in one of my friend’s house. I thought I’d be ok for the whole day but I wasn’t ok. I was a mess.
I cut on the shower before I go to the party. Then when I got there, so many things happened and I got so confused. First, I saw how much me and my friends don’t fit in....
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coverupthewoundsthaticanthide replied to your post: I’m 3 days clean so far
Just keep it up hun :))
thank you baby :)) we’ll both keep it up ;)
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I'm 3 days clean so far
And it’s great :) I mean, I’ve been exercising so that has helped a lot (cause I feel better when I exercise, like happier) but anyway, I guess I can do it. I can pull this off. I mean, tomorrow night I’mma be hanging out with some friends so I won’t think about it AT ALL! And that’s just so good. I’m gonna dance, laugh and relax.
Plus, I have like this huge...
“I envy you. Every moment. You can leave me. I cannot leave myself.”
– Anna Świrszczyńska (via thanksbutno)
Anonymous asked: You are an amazing amazing amazing person. I don't even know you but i love you! Thank you! <3
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To the anon below
I know what it’s like to feel numb. I really do know. I’ve been feeling like that ever since my grandma got sick. She has alzheimer and she lives with me and my mom, so we receive all the impact of her disease. And sometimes it feels overwhelming.
I know this has NOTHING to compare to the loss of your mother, but I just want you to stay strong cause I know you can do it. Ok? And you...
Anonymous asked: You got my message. A little late, but it's okay, you can still do it. My mum died two days ago. I feel so numb. So please, do this for me, an anonymous girl. Don't cut, life is too precious to harm yourself <3
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coverupthewoundsthaticanthide replied to your post: coverupthewoundsthaticanthide replied to…
okay long as you try, just do it for me thats all i’m asking, an i will be the butterfly :) stay strong sweetie ♥
I’ll try my best. Thank you so much for caring, baby. Stay strong <3
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coverupthewoundsthaticanthide replied to your post: So, I’ve cut myself. Again.
i want you to put a butterfly in the place you want to cut..that butterfly is me, an if you cut anywhere or any at all…it will die, it called the butterfly project, an i really want you to do this.. please?
oh baby, I’ll try to do that )): I really will. I heard about this butterfly project today, so...
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So, I've cut myself. Again.
After almost 8 months of struggle, almost 8 months clean, I did what I thought I’d never do again: I made two little cuts in each of my legs. I made them little so no one will see them. And I wanna do it again, I wanna cut again tonight.
This is gonna sound extremely sick, but I enjoyed it. I cried when I started cutting, cause I thought I’d go back to that dark place I was, but...
Anonymous asked: The Butterfly Project: Everytime you have the urge to cut, you draw a butterfly on your body. Name it after a loved one. You cut, you kill it, you kill that beautiful little thing you've created. You are not allowed to wash it off, it must fade naturally. Stay Strong <3
December 2011
15 posts
I wonder, if I cut myself right now
Am I gonna feel something again? Or am I just gonna drop a lot of blood? Am I gonna feel better? Or am I gonna feel worse? Am I gonna be consumed with guilt by doing it or with regret by not doing it?
Life’s a test. I don’t always know the right answer, like right now. I know this ain’t healthy, but I miss being the broken self-harmer girl. Being who I am right now is boring. I...
“I won’t struggle on in a world so cold, in a world wrong. I’m not...”
– Brompton Cocktail, Avenged Sevenfold
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I just feel like cutting. Right now. And throwing...
I wanna stick my finger in my throat and throw up so bad. I’m so fat. I NEED to lose weight. Although I have never done it, I have never threw up like that. I just want to right now. And cutting. Seeing a lot of blood coming out of me.
I just want that. I have that urge. But I have to control it.
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I just hate this feeling of not being good enough
I wake up like that every single day. And I fucking hate it. I just wanna look at myself in the mirror and be happy with the way I look or who I am. Instead, I’m fucking unhappy. My life’s miserable and it’s all my fault.
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Torturing myself with love songs hurts more than...
I know I’ll never have that. I know I’ll never love again. My broken heart won’t fall for anyone. Ever.