December 2011
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I wonder, if I cut myself right now
Am I gonna feel something again? Or am I just gonna drop a lot of blood? Am I gonna feel better? Or am I gonna feel worse? Am I gonna be consumed with guilt by doing it or with regret by not doing it?
Life’s a test. I don’t always know the right answer, like right now. I know this ain’t healthy, but I miss being the broken self-harmer girl. Being who I am right now is boring. I...
“I won’t struggle on in a world so cold, in a world wrong. I’m not...”
– Brompton Cocktail, Avenged Sevenfold
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I just feel like cutting. Right now. And throwing...
I wanna stick my finger in my throat and throw up so bad. I’m so fat. I NEED to lose weight. Although I have never done it, I have never threw up like that. I just want to right now. And cutting. Seeing a lot of blood coming out of me.
I just want that. I have that urge. But I have to control it.
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I just hate this feeling of not being good enough
I wake up like that every single day. And I fucking hate it. I just wanna look at myself in the mirror and be happy with the way I look or who I am. Instead, I’m fucking unhappy. My life’s miserable and it’s all my fault.
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Torturing myself with love songs hurts more than...
I know I’ll never have that. I know I’ll never love again. My broken heart won’t fall for anyone. Ever.
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I just think maybe I'm too stupid to believe I'm...
I’ve realized I only love the ones that can’t love me. And I can’t love someone who loves me first. I guess my broken heart is still so broken and so damaged that I’m afraid to fall. So I put up a wall between me and the rest of the world. And I hate this. It’s like I can’t let my heart be free again. It’s like I don’t even wanna try. I don’t...