I just hate this feeling of not being good enough
I wake up like that every single day. And I fucking hate it. I just wanna look at myself in the mirror and be happy with the way I look or who I am. Instead, I’m fucking unhappy. My life’s miserable and it’s all my fault.
Torturing myself with love songs hurts more than cutting
I know I’ll never have that. I know I’ll never love again. My broken heart won’t fall for anyone. Ever.
I just think maybe I’m too stupid to believe I’m ever gonna be happy again
I’ve realized I only love the ones that can’t love me. And I can’t love someone who loves me first. I guess my broken heart is still so broken and so damaged that I’m afraid to fall. So I put up a wall between me and the rest of the world. And I hate this. It’s like I can’t let my heart be free again. It’s like I don’t even wanna try. I don’t want this. I wanna love again. I wanna be hurt again. I wanna feel something again. Cause I feel like living the life of a robot. It’s not what I thought I’d be when I was a child. It’s not what I want to be. I just wanna change.
